Gone to Church

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The long prayer,
a sermon - closed eyes. 

Don't fidget, 
sit still. 

Silence! 
Autistic disregulation.

This doesn't work, 
is this church? 

Inclusion? 
Twenty minutes -
still church. 

Garden time, 
home. 

Still, 
went to church. 

-DTH-


A Highland Theological College graduate and non-conformist follower of Jesus living at the crossroads of neurodiversity and faith. Writing on the wild grace of the Gospel.

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